It is here. Well almost. As of April 30th I will graduate and 'end' my college career. Come on you really didn't fall for that did you? Why would I stop attending classes, I am an education person, I will be learning for the rest of my life. And as of yet, as I have no 'real job' as my boss puts it, I receive one free class per semester. I say take it!!!
What else....hmmm. Well on the baby front, as I seem to have been updating you for a bit, we are at a standstill. We discussed the various sides of the debate and decided that logically we need to wait until David is of school. One of my biggest fears is him not finishing. The horrible realization that hit after this conversation though was that we would have to wait for over three years. Three years people, I will be thirty by the time I have a child. So not cool. After I had my mental break down and sobbed myself to sleep, something which my poor husband dealt with remarkably well, I realized that the whole hangover feeling was not for me and I need to get over this. Then it happened. Yesterday while shopping for fabric with my mom and friend, Dianna, I found a book of nursery ideas. I loved it, and come on why not start making baby stuff now and putting it away, kinda like a trousseau kinda thing. No harm in that right....right! All this generally serves to do is make me obsess about having a baby. As I debated this fact with my mom, apparently she agreed with the greedy side of me and she ran back to the store to buy that book. As I told this story to a friend at work she told me, "you know Kayde, it would just be better if you had the baby." I disagreed for the following reason:
It's like Christmas. Remember that feeling of excitement and joy leading up to the day? It is wonderful and exciting and you never want it to stop, but at the same time you want it here. It is the same concept. If I have a baby its Christmas day. Then its all over, and its time to clean up the mess and get back to real life.
Well I thought that fit the bill wonderfully, at least until I talked to David last night. We decided to wait until at least next fall if not next spring and then discuss the dilemma from there. Now the game is to see if I can actually hold out.......good luck!
Just remember, sometimes you decide you want a baby and then you wait...and wait...and wait...and the baby STILL doesn't come. As someone who has been trying so far unsuccessfully for almost 16 months, I would advise you not to wait too long. Your body responds better to fertility drugs when you're in your 20s.
ReplyDeleteThis is true. It has been a very hot topic in our house for a few weeks. Looks like we might attempt to start tying (or at least talking about it) in September. He is starting to stress about all the stuff I have been stressing about for so long. How are you? I miss our random talks and your great advice. Oh and p.s. thank you for being the only person who lets me know you actually read this blog. It makes me smile everytime you leave a comment.
ReplyDeletehaha, glad to make your day. :) I'm doing good. 48 days left until graduation! I only have 3 weeks left of teaching, I'm kind of sad because I've grown to really enjoy it and I really like my kids, but I am SO relieved as well, I really need a low-stress environment right now in order for all the fertility drugs to be most effective, and student teaching is so not that. :)
ReplyDeleteI miss our talks, too! Come to think of it, I miss history methods in general. That class I thoroughly enjoyed. Are you walking at graduation in April? Maybe we'll see each other. :)
Good luck with making decisions. When did being grown up get to be so hard, right? lol.
Kayde you would be a great mom! Just remember you will never get you and Dave time again. Sometimes I seem to pull my hair out wanting the possiblity to sleep in... but they are worth it. You will be a mom when it is time. I wish you all the best. Jana
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