January

So I think that I have decided this is the worst month of the year. Last year at this time I received my promotion, only to find out I had to share it with someone who caused a lot of problems and stress in my life. This year I return to Utah after a bittersweet holiday in Alabama to stress and chaos at work, coworkers taking over my position, sickness, bad news, and all manner of no good very bad terribleness. If you catch my drift.

As for the bad news, guess that it is time to look for that silver lining again. I talked with my boss the other day and found out that once again David was not going to receive the full time position. This time I can actually understand their reasoning and it is legitimate, but it still hurts and once again sends us back to square one. They say that they are going to give David a raise and guarantee him hours, but some how I am finding it hard to believe. David is thinking that he will give it until the end of February and if things are not looking better he will start looking for a new job. I hate to see him do this as he really loves his job, but at the same time I can not continue working two/three jobs and attempt to be a good wife. As it is the current job that he has does not really allow him to attend classes, if he were able to get a night job he could take classes full time and get through his education so we could move forward in life.

On the plus side he will be able to attend my graduation in May. This is something which really means a lot to me. We have started attending the temple every week like we used to, I know this will help things out a lot. I am also asking him to take some time off and go on a trip with me next month...now hopefully he can actually do it. I don't know, maybe I need to get back on my medication, maybe if I do that things will start to look up, as it is the past week has felt like a really horrible roller coaster.