Blahhness

January is marching on with the usual insanity. We have been juggling school and work, mostly work, and attempting to spend sometime together. As a result of said schedule I have accomplished little to no work in the form of house work or crafts. I need to finish a friend's quilt for her wedding...saturday...oops. I was hoping to have it tied and finished, make several aprons for said wedding, and organize the disaster of my stash. Last night I took a much needed break, received a pedicure (ah bliss!), and came home to my tornado stricken house and began work. Much to my surprise a neighbor stopped by to drop something off and commented on how clean the house was, little did he know that I had started with that room and if he were to venture in further the dust bunnies would attack.

On the baby front we are watching as all of our married friends are enlarging their families and being blessed by their oh so adorable children. We on the other hand will not be following suit for sometime. Hopefully sooner than later. We know we want at least four children if possible, its just the thought of giving birth that worries me...there are needles involved!!! Currently we have a short list of girls names (mainly ones I want) and an attempt at boys that we like.

David does not know this but I have been looking at houses. I know the thought of us buying one is ludicrous but It would be so nice to own our own home which we could decorate as we please and plant our roots, while building collateral towards a permanent home in the future. As it is we are lucky to meet all of our bills each month. We were doing okay this month, would be much better if we would get better at our spending habits. I need to start using our financial folder and keeping us to our budget if we are ever going to get anywhere in life. I know we need to build up our savings for a home, furniture, decorations, and mainly CHILDREN and in all honesty I am attempting to lead us in this direction. Now if we could both control ourselves maybe we could get somewhere with this plan.

New Beginnings

As posted previously David did not receive his promotion. His new boss has started work this week. It is always strange when one trains ones own boss isn't it. From what I can tell Shane is going to be a great addition to our facility and David seems to get along with him greatly. On the other had it is I who seems to be having problems at work of late. One of my assistants was moved to another area and seems to think of himself as the new manager. He resents any assistance I try to give, and any management that comes from me as I am 'micro-managing' him. He has some brilliant ideas as how to help the area progress, but hesitates to listen when I step forward as the leader. We had it out yesterday and well, it was not pretty. David observed part of the conversation, and protective as always tried to muscle his way in. When I talked to him later he was still quite annoyed and wanted to inform said person that they were never to talk to me that way again. It does warm the heart to hear someone, especially a husband, talk like that but at the same time causes some stress as to the repercussions if he were to actually follow through with his threats. Hopefully the next few days, weeks, and months are better.

In a way I understand what he is trying to do. He has a wife and six children to care for, and as provider this is his main priority. He is looking desperately, not unlike us, for a promotion and raise. On that matter I know exactly how he feels. David was promised more hours, and our bosses solution to this is to raise him to the position of Supervisor over the custodial crew. Four nights per week (and sometimes three) David will over see the crew to pick up additional hours. He is also receiving a raise which might possibly be around seventy to eighty cents. The number part is still under supposed debate, I guess we will see when and IF it ever comes about.

No matter the number of times I seem to annoy my husband or tax him ever so horribly, he maintains to be the best husband ever. This past week he has allowed me to do what so ever I please (even to lounge about or sleep until ten or eleven in the morning!). hen he tried to make himself scarce while the girls came over for a girls night. Since then he has done all he can to watch over me as I cough up my lungs. Today he has sat for hours as I watch my Regency movies, and has actually ceased to tease me about them. Honestly truthfully....I am seriously blessed.

January

So I think that I have decided this is the worst month of the year. Last year at this time I received my promotion, only to find out I had to share it with someone who caused a lot of problems and stress in my life. This year I return to Utah after a bittersweet holiday in Alabama to stress and chaos at work, coworkers taking over my position, sickness, bad news, and all manner of no good very bad terribleness. If you catch my drift.

As for the bad news, guess that it is time to look for that silver lining again. I talked with my boss the other day and found out that once again David was not going to receive the full time position. This time I can actually understand their reasoning and it is legitimate, but it still hurts and once again sends us back to square one. They say that they are going to give David a raise and guarantee him hours, but some how I am finding it hard to believe. David is thinking that he will give it until the end of February and if things are not looking better he will start looking for a new job. I hate to see him do this as he really loves his job, but at the same time I can not continue working two/three jobs and attempt to be a good wife. As it is the current job that he has does not really allow him to attend classes, if he were able to get a night job he could take classes full time and get through his education so we could move forward in life.

On the plus side he will be able to attend my graduation in May. This is something which really means a lot to me. We have started attending the temple every week like we used to, I know this will help things out a lot. I am also asking him to take some time off and go on a trip with me next month...now hopefully he can actually do it. I don't know, maybe I need to get back on my medication, maybe if I do that things will start to look up, as it is the past week has felt like a really horrible roller coaster.